so yesterday was a beautiful day! and for half of it i was couped inside at youth villages cleaning kids/adolescents' teeth. youth villages is a "facility" for kids who have trouble emotionally and who may act out from the emotional trouble they are going through. well, i always get nervous with this rotation (urban smiles). i feel so awful for the kids we see because of their home life and their family situations. they love attention and they love that we are "nice" to them and are helping them keep their teeth clean. yesterday, one of my patients was a little 10 year old boy. as i was finishing up flossing him and giving him his fluoride, i started to ask him if he had eaten lunch and what it was. he sortof made a sad face and said, "i don't want to go back! i want to stay here with ya'll!" and i asked, "well you don't want to go see all of your friends and go eat a yummy lunch?" and he said kindof shyly, "no, i don't want to, because ya'll are nice to me". ahhh. with everything in me i tried not to tear up under my goggles and mask! this rotation is so rewarding but also so challenging and hard to see these kids and find out what they are going through and how they must feel. and how blessed i am. it always fires something in me to give back and i wanted to adopt this little boy!!!
well, i am back at the poplar house which has been refreshing! even though my board exam is over, i still have alot to do before the end of the semester and graduation. the race is still going and won't be over until may 28th...which equals the finish line for me :) and i cannot wait. it will be a bittersweet time. i feel like my class has bonded- the 29 of us- because we go to class as one group, we celebrate birthdays together by going to dinner, we had a good-bye party for one of our teachers the week before spring break and had a potluck! all 29 of us contributed something. and we cry, laugh, get frustrated, etc. together. as challenging as things can be, we sortof lean on each other. and i have learned more these past 2 years in this program than ever that i cannot rely on my own strength. it always goes back to the Lord and how i need Him and need to trust His ways are better. and that He sympathizes with me in my weakness and griefs...and is faithful to bring me through in His timing. (the picture at the top is of our class from last year's halloween after one of our pre-clinic days!)
i read the other day in a devotional by Beth Moore called "Breaking Free". she was referring to 2 chronicles 31/32 and how king hezekiah (a young king) was being attacked by the king of assyria. and hezekiah, trusting in God, told his men that the God would protect them and they would defeat the king of assyria, they just simply had to trust in His strength. well the king of assyria had sent a message to them sortof mocking them and mocking their God. after king hezekiah and the prophet isaiah had prayed, verse 21 says, "and the Lord sent an angel, who annihilated all the fighting men and the leaders and officers in the camp of the Assyrian king. so he withdrew to his own land in disgrace. and when he went into the temple of his god, some of his sons cut him down with the sword"...and verse 22 "so the LORD saved hezekiah and the people of jerusalem from the hand of the king of assyria and from the hand of all others. He took care of them on EVERY SIDE".
how untrusting and doubtful i am to even pray sometimes about things! because i want my way so much or i don't want to trust Him with certain things...but i can pray to Him about anything. and trust His goodness and strength instead of relying on my own confidence.
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