my life has changed tremendously since monday...actually last friday. i had a job interview in brentwood, tn last friday and the job was to start monday morning at 715. that meant, i had a couple of days to get my bearings in brentwood, find a hotel to stay in this week, and i felt like i had to figure out life as we know it for this chapter. do i sound dramatic enough yet?
i'm excited and scared at the same time about this phase of life. i almost broke out in a panic attack/tears when i was sitting in the office manager's office...just because i knew my life was changing. and can i just reemphasize that i don't like change. it stinks. to me, it is one of the hardest things. especially when ALOT of different little things change all at once. it's like i realized my "home", friends, environment, everything i knew that was familiar was going to change. and looking back on one of my old posts about looking to the next thing, it's funny to me now. because this new chapter was right around the corner and i didn't know it.
i've learned a few things this week about work and people in general. and i can't think of the actual quote right now, but several things this week "brought me down" and all i could think was how discouraged i felt. but then a quote or song or something came into my head that said you just had to prove yourself and pick yourself up and try harder/work harder at fixing whatever is going wrong. obviously i went through 2 years of school learning things and i know i can do it, but ALL the time we have to look beyond our own skills/strengths and onto trusting the Lord.
i miss alot of things already about home. and tomorrow i'll head back to memphis to seriously think about moving/apartments/this job/etc.
life as i know it is definitely changing...
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