filling holes

i forgot how good chicken noodle soup is. i remember growing up and eating it whenever i felt bad or just because i didn't want what my mom made that night. or sunday nights were our free for all nights (my mom's "night off" from cooking), so dad would pop bags and bags of popcorn, michael and i would eat ramen noodles or soup, and we would turn on dr quinn medicine woman.
so tonight, i'm enjoying chicken noodle soup...and remembering home. and remembering how warm and full it makes me feel inside.
i'm also thinking about and remembering the voids and little holes in my heart right now...that only God can heal and fill. but when i search and read His Word, i'm reminded how full He makes me. i was reminded today via a pastor back home that keeping connected and busy is helpful and keeps my heart from feeling discouraged and from going into a downward sprial, but i also need to remember to let God fill the "holes" only HE can fill.
so tonight, i'm eating chicken noodle soup, cherishing "home", and searching God's Word..so i can let Him truly fill me.
2 cor 1
blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God. For as we share abundantly in Christ's sufferings, so through Christ we share abundantly in comfort too. if we are afflicted it is for your comfort and salvation; and if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which you experience when you patiently endure the same sufferings that we suffer. our hope for you is unshaken for we know that as you share in our sufferings, you will also share in our comfort.
indeed we felt that we had received the sentence of death but that was to make us RELY not on ourselves but on GOD who raises the dead. he delivered us from such a deadly peril and he will deliver us. on him we have set our hope that he will deliver us again. you also must help us by prayer, so that many will give thanks on our behalf for the blessing granted us through the prayers of many.for our boast is this, the testimony of our conscience, that we behaved in the world with simplicity and godly sincerity, not by earthly wisdom but by the grace of God, and supremely so toward you. for we are not writing to you anything other than what you read and acknowledge and i hope you will fully acknolwedge just as you did partially acknowledge us- that on the day of our Lord Jesus you will boast of us as we will boast of you. and it is God who establishes us with you in Christ, and has anointed us, and who has also put his seal on us and given us His Spirit in our hearts as a guarantee.